Yesterday night, I rolled on my bed, things flashed through my mind, I couldn't sleep and I found my face wet, my pillow soaked. Today i awoke from my sleep, trying to deceive myself that it's a dream but it wasn't because, I can feel the ache inside my heart from last night.
So, from the start, your feelings are deceiving you? You're just having a good first impression of me, nice and adorable like you said and that's all? So, what you said last month, is not true at all? Then why in the first place, did you said you had? Didn't want to make me disappointed? But if you don't have any feelings, you shouldn't had said that, at all. I would rather i got disappointed at that time,really. Yes, and I am so dumb that you had to make things so clear to me, which is so hurtful, so blame on my dumbness.
Understanding takes time,isn't it? If there's a chance for me to understand, i would definitely be pleased to do so. Thinking is different? Do you know what I'm thinking? I don't know yours, how would you know mine? How well do you know that I won't be able to give you the comfort,security, the feeling?In such a short time, you seems to be so sure that i can't gave you all that. So, afterall, you still love your ex, like you had before. Why are you looking for a girl who had the same attributes as her?perhaps, afterall, you're be just living behind her shadow but still, you chose to. I'm not trying to argue with you to make you change your mind, I'm just trying to make you see that, is there really any point in doing so?Yes, i may be younger than you and didn't have the say or rights to talk sense into you, but perhaps, everyone will agree with me for asking you to just get her over? I'm not being selfish to make you forget her so that I can be with you. I'm saying all that because I cared about you, i think it's for your own good. And, you said love is blind, I can't make you change your mind, as if I saying all that for my own good. And the worse is, you said you will start disregard me as a friend if i continue with the arguement?
You said you're sorry and said you tried not to hurt me yesterday night and all this while. Do you know it hurts more when you said all these?It's because, you actually care, and it makes me feel worse. Perhaps, if you didnt even care how i would feel, i won't feel that worse. And I apologize if what i said had made you pissed off because i brought up the issue of your ex with his current boyfriend.
God, tell me how am i going to stop my feelings right now? Why do i have to exists in this world, facing all these? Yes, people will say it's part of my life and I couldn't run away from it , so i just have to face it and move on. Why are the people walking into my life and leaving? Why no one is staying behind? Among all the people i like till now, there's 2 guys that i will bury inside my heart because, i just can't get them over. First is the crush before this and the second one is, the one right now. If there's anything that can numb and cut away my feelings, I would accept it without hesistant because, it's hurtful. I just hope that, I won't take like one year or so, to try to get over this one right now.
So, from the start, your feelings are deceiving you? You're just having a good first impression of me, nice and adorable like you said and that's all? So, what you said last month, is not true at all? Then why in the first place, did you said you had? Didn't want to make me disappointed? But if you don't have any feelings, you shouldn't had said that, at all. I would rather i got disappointed at that time,really. Yes, and I am so dumb that you had to make things so clear to me, which is so hurtful, so blame on my dumbness.
Understanding takes time,isn't it? If there's a chance for me to understand, i would definitely be pleased to do so. Thinking is different? Do you know what I'm thinking? I don't know yours, how would you know mine? How well do you know that I won't be able to give you the comfort,security, the feeling?In such a short time, you seems to be so sure that i can't gave you all that. So, afterall, you still love your ex, like you had before. Why are you looking for a girl who had the same attributes as her?perhaps, afterall, you're be just living behind her shadow but still, you chose to. I'm not trying to argue with you to make you change your mind, I'm just trying to make you see that, is there really any point in doing so?Yes, i may be younger than you and didn't have the say or rights to talk sense into you, but perhaps, everyone will agree with me for asking you to just get her over? I'm not being selfish to make you forget her so that I can be with you. I'm saying all that because I cared about you, i think it's for your own good. And, you said love is blind, I can't make you change your mind, as if I saying all that for my own good. And the worse is, you said you will start disregard me as a friend if i continue with the arguement?
You said you're sorry and said you tried not to hurt me yesterday night and all this while. Do you know it hurts more when you said all these?It's because, you actually care, and it makes me feel worse. Perhaps, if you didnt even care how i would feel, i won't feel that worse. And I apologize if what i said had made you pissed off because i brought up the issue of your ex with his current boyfriend.
God, tell me how am i going to stop my feelings right now? Why do i have to exists in this world, facing all these? Yes, people will say it's part of my life and I couldn't run away from it , so i just have to face it and move on. Why are the people walking into my life and leaving? Why no one is staying behind? Among all the people i like till now, there's 2 guys that i will bury inside my heart because, i just can't get them over. First is the crush before this and the second one is, the one right now. If there's anything that can numb and cut away my feelings, I would accept it without hesistant because, it's hurtful. I just hope that, I won't take like one year or so, to try to get over this one right now.
