life story

2009-08-15T04:24:00.000-07:00

Now, blogger is back to its weird condition. Buttons are gone. Now, I'm doing tumblr. Should be using that already since blogger is like .... So readers, please go http://xiuyu.tumblr.com/ for my posts. Wont be blogging here anymore, i guess .

2009-08-14T10:43:00.000-07:00

♥loved

This is so damn funny. Blogger seems to be fine when I go and signed up for other websites for blogging. LOL. And i signed up for wordpress and tumblr. wonder which one i should use it. Will put the link here once i cant stand blogger.

Meet up with clique for dinner after DSS exam. Speaking of DSS, I think I'm gonna fail.25%. Hopefully, I will still be able to pass overall. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEEE ! Dinner at pastamania and it's so funny about the duh conversation jon had with the waitress. Shall copy the conversation from leen's blog and let all of you see. Perhaps, you guys dont find it that funny cos your didn't witness it yourself. And the day just goes on with DUH. Took neoprints at arcade afterwards and we even made duh faces. It has been quite some time since I saw beeleng and she didnt came today. how sad ): hopefully, the next meet up will be the WHOLE clique:D

P.S Photos taken today on facebook.

Duh Conversation

So, Jonathan, Jude, Xiuyu and me was ordering food from pasta mania and Jonathan was first.
Salesgirl: Hello, welcome to pasta mania, can I take your order please?
Jonathan: I want this. *pointing to the menu*
Salesgirl: Choice of pasta?
Jonathan: Duh? O_O
Eileen: This one! This one! *holding on to the fusilli*
Jonathan: Duh? O_O Okay, that one that one.
Salesgirl: So it's fusilli?
Jonathan: Duh? O_O Huh, ya ya.
Salesgirl: Sitting outside or inside?
Jonathan: Duh? O_O
Eileen: Outside outside!
Jonathan: *Turn side ways* Duh? O_O ya ya ya, sitting outside outside.
Jude, Xiuyu, Eileen: -laughing non-stop-

There's no reason to explain what love is. Just like how I felt towards you.

2009-08-13T10:58:00.000-07:00

Self-control is what I need most right now, at this moment. Time now is 2.15am and I'm still sitting in front of my laptop with DSS textbook, not focusing so much on DSS though. I'm just so damn S-L-O-W with DSS. DSS exam will be held from 5.30 to 6.30pm. Meet up with clique tmr for dinner.

I can't seems to get over in any way. There's not a single day whereby I can stop myself from thinking.

2009-08-13T03:15:00.000-07:00

DSS final exam is just tmr. And, I'm still studying for it like sooooo slowwww. Buck up and it'll be over soon! After tmr, I wont be doing DSS anymore?that's one thing to be happy about:D jiayous!

2009-08-12T00:53:00.000-07:00

More photos taken that day.

MY LAPTOP IS BACK, like finally? *jumps*:D :D :D :D :D :D :D

2009-08-10T08:18:00.000-07:00

that's weixin's foot. LOL.

weixin(:

with weixin and rebecca(:

Some photos taken today. Others on Facebook.

Met weixin,rebecca and yinching at Lot1 interchange and took bus to bugis. Catched "Up" with them at iluma. Show was not bad,i find it quite touching leh.lol. dunno why,too emotional again? And it's so sweeeet lah.lol. But not much 3D effect? But overall, was fine(:

Sijia came to meet us and we shopped around bugis. Bought 2shorts and 1 top. Didnt manage to get the shoes i wanted becos it's either no size or no black colour. Why is that shoe so good selling?hmphf. I think this is my first time ever that i go bugis without getting a dress? hohoho. though i didnt buy any dress, i still feel like buying leh D: Nevermind, next time(; shall go shop before sem2 starts:D

Took bus and went rebecca's house. Had Pizzahut for dinner and left her house at 9pm? Took photos at her house using webcam and i rmb i uploaded almost 30plus photos to fb lo. den when i reached home now and see, it's like only 16 photos. waste my hard work la ): LOL.

2009-08-09T01:37:00.000-07:00

Something is wrong. Suddenly, It feels weird in there. It makes the tears drop. It's suffocating. It's hurting. It's making memories of ___. My heart. I wonder why. Perhaps, it's because yesterday night was the 8th of the month. Don't tell me it will be like this for every 8th of the month and also, the 15th.

2009-08-08T04:00:00.000-07:00

I dreamt about you again;

went salon with mum and sis today as mum wanna have a haircut and dye her hair. Went westmall with sis while waiting for mum and went G2000 to get skirt. Haven get top yet cos maybe going to get with rebecca they all or so? and there isnt much top designs at small tiny westmall.laughs.

BBF tonight:D

2009-08-07T06:51:00.000-07:00

last tutorial with Mr Kevin Chua

with some classmates

top left:Caiyan,rachel
bottom left:weixin,me

above all just afew more photos from ytd. More at fb.

Was late for class.LMS today was like wasting time=x went to hear Mrs Diana Chee say about project grades and like chatting session?shall wait for her email,commenting on my individual assignment.Went Lot1 with sijia since class ended early. Bought leggings,like finally cos my leggings are missing and vanished from the air in my wardrobe.

Ended up, decide not to go out with 4e2 clique to celebrate jianming's belated bday as we're just be going mind cafe and dinner. Sounds bad but, we can meet up next time(:

I was too late,like again. I missed even the last chance. It's always on mind, I knew I shouldn't but ..

2009-08-06T07:44:00.001-07:00

Above all just some photos taken today during BMGT lecture like again,but..it's the last one. and it's the last lecture for sem1. More photos on fb and more photos to be uploaded by weixin(:

Tutorials, lectures are all coming to an end right now. That means, final exams are coming! D: and it's less than 3weeks time?haven start on revision yet. But first, think i should worry for next friday derh DSS exam ba? ): Have to jiayou for DSS next week since not much classes next week. Like only need go back on wed?laughs.

Tmr is really really the last chance. Please, just give me luck and fate tmr. One look will do, even the back view or side view. If tmr isn't my luck, I don't know if there's a chance to see anymore. Yes,I know I'm being foolish,dumb..but I just can't help it.

2009-08-05T02:16:00.000-07:00

I'm glad I scored well for MAEC Common Test 2(: much better than Common Test 1 35/40 :D
DSS presentation was like...didnt present much anyways.

There is no me in your day,
probably not even in your memories.

2009-08-04T09:46:00.000-07:00

First, my laptop is sent for repair. There's something wrong with the LCD screen and im so damn sad and lost without my lappy): I wonder when i can get it back. It's so troublesome without my lappy): I hope I can get back asap! ><

Nothing much for this week yet cos it's just tues today. Had last BMGT tutorial today. We folded paper planes during class and test out whose group plane can fly into the rubbish bin,amazing isn't it? Like, back to primary. Took photos with Mr Kevin Chua as well,guess he will send the photos to one of us den end up in fb?

Tmr will be DSS PBL2 presentation. I'm so damn scare kay. I'm so scare my mind will be blank and forgot what to do =/ so people, pray hard for my presentation kay? And, tmr maec tutorial will get back CT2 paper! D: hope I did fine and well,really.

P.S Guess I wont be blogging lately cos my laptop !!!!!!!!!! ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ):

Monday, my mind went blank when I saw you,right there. You seems to saw me but you just turned away. How do I look to the people around me?What will they describe me in one word?Happy?Troubled? Seems like it's not a positive word though.

2009-08-02T00:03:00.000-07:00

spent most of yesterday time at my grandma's house. Cousin brought her baby boy there,so cute. I don't feel sleepy last night,I actually start doing my POA after past midnight, like 1am plus?when my eldest sis already went off to bed. Something is wrong with me yesterday, that's what I felt. Reached home late yesterday and I missed some parts for BBF. But it's alright now as I watched it online just now.

Shall continue POA and perhaps,start studying for the BLAW test on Business Org1 and 2 which will be held on tues since I missed tutorial last thurs which most ppl already took it.

Something is wrong with me lately. I'm having flashbacks,as and when. There's no one to help me. It's useless,pointless. I didn't even knew if you still treat me as a friend.

2009-07-31T06:12:00.000-07:00

There goes my friday. I didnt make it for class today, like again. Perhaps, my last chance is gone as well. But if fate exists, there may still be chances,isn't it? Let's just hope that fate exists in my world when it concerns about ..

Xiuyu is craving for J.CO donuts and subway cookies! ><

2009-07-30T06:26:00.000-07:00

First, there's one thing I wanna say. After waiting for so long, guess what? I'm going for iDARE CAMP! :D got the email ytd from np mail and there's a girl who called me just now to say about the details. I cant rmb exactly what she said, all thanks to the Ge Tai below my block,damn loud.

Have been staying at home since tuesday cos i'm sick. Did no school work at all, I just simply, sleep,eat,watch tv,surf net. And i think i really slept too much. I slept at 1plus midnight, woke up at 1plus next day and eat lunch and medicine and I sleep again at like 4plus to hmm, 6plus? If this carrys on, im gonna die not becos of sickness, becos, im gonna grow fat lo. eat already den sleep=="

Everyone is falling sick right now. Yiling haven recovered yet. Weixin and rebecca also sick. There's already 4 of us sick. The rest must really take care. Plus, my classmates are sick as well? get well people. exams are nearing ><

Tmr is friday. Perhaps, it's my last and only friday. I have to go school. That's my last chance. So,God, please let me wake up on time and let me just have some luck.

2009-07-28T23:51:00.000-07:00

I'm just like the balloons.I flew up high in the sky a month ago. But I went right down when you said what you said wasn't actually that. Why do you have to pull me right down once I reached the top? Hold on to me tight, to show me the direction I should go and never let go of me as I may just went out of control, like now.

2009-07-28T02:12:00.000-07:00

Fever went up to 39degrees. Didnt go school today which means, I missed BMGT presentation. thanks marcus for taking over my slides. Went to see doctor and he said my temperature hit 39degrees and i have to mc for a week. I got shocked when i heard a week la. den he counted and said, okay, you go school next week. This means that i have 4days mc. Goodness. Think this is my first time for having so many days mc. This means that i couldn't know my maec results on the spot which will be given back to us tmr? argh. I wanna know my results. Hopefully, i pass la. I ownself think i will pass, if i fail then.. eh, i die.LOL. but i will pass right?eileen has been praying for me, right eileen?lol. gosh. i sounds like a crazy woman right now. talking to myself. And thanks people for their concern(:

And i will miss friday lesson too. Friday. Friday Friday. My only Friday.

something is really wrong with my blogger. Cant change the font,colour,upload pics, anything at all. idiot

2009-07-27T03:53:00.000-07:00

Sick. Flu, cough and fever. and bmgt presentation is just tmr. What a time to fall sick. Besides, exams are nearing.

I found out that when im sick, i tend to cry easily.
Perhaps, I will only get over when i start to see other people in my eyes.

2009-07-26T09:10:00.000-07:00

JESS! HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY! :D HOPE YOU ENJOY TODAY WITH US AND THE SURPRISES WE GAVE YOU. LOVES♥

gave surprises for jess with 17balloons and also, a big board with our photos and messages to her.

Out with clique without jon to marina barrage. Played twister, heart attack n other games. Screamed like crazy ppl while playing heart attack. Dinner at Westmall mac and bought cake from BreadTalk for her. took neoprints after that. Lots of fun and laughter today. Took tons of photos, like 200++ and im gonna die uploading to fb.

POA graded assignment tmr and i still didnt really study for it yet. Im gonna screwed up my 5% man=/ my blogger abit weird eh. cant really upload pics properly and post properly. if not, i will post this post purple for jess(: i shall edit the post if my blogger works normally.

2009-07-24T06:59:00.000-07:00

I decided to leave. Will i regret leaving? After i made my decision yesterday, I was kinda hesitant? Perhaps because that seems to be the only connection between you and me and the choice of leaving, will end this connection and perhaps, further interaction? What if you will come back next year?When you're back, I won't be there. I won't be able to see you and I won't be able to see you at all, after i chose to leave and that's the end.

I won't be able to see you like forever. I can't imagine it and i don't want to picture it. But perhaps, leaving, is the only way to prevent me from thinking. I really can't imagine that I won't be able to see you forever and ever after next year when you're gone. How would i feel, when you're gone like forever?

I'd been staring at the classroom door. I didn't see what I want to see. And now, I knew why. Rest well.

2009-07-22T20:40:00.000-07:00

Someone, tell me, how am i going to get out of what im experiencing now;

was late for maec lecture becos missed the bus. bus to school with eileen,sijia,avalyn and hui kai. blaw tutorial afterwards. didnt get to play the game loh. tutor say no time,ask us got free time go play ourselves. humph. but i think, it's also not fun to play with la.lol. lunch with TB27 and then went OurSpace to do DSS. Ivan was saying he was giving me a surprise which i tot it's something stupid or it's dss work but..it's not. the surprise is, the guys had completed the e-learning assignment and submitted. *thumbs up* haha. still wasted some of my time to go do the e-learning assignment.

BMGT lecture followed after that. As usual, did own stuffs during lecture. It ended very early, like 4.10 or 4.15? went OurSpace to slack and now, here i am to blog. Was wondering, should i or should i not go for training today?im already prepared with the attire and blah blah blah. Should i go?? you all will know the answer tmr(:

2009-07-22T07:12:00.001-07:00

Xiuyu is being a bad girl today. Here's how the story goes..She woke up at 10plus,her tutorial starts at 11am. Prepare and get out at like 11am?thinking of taking cab but they isnt any available,time was already 11.05. surely cant make it by 11.15 if take cab, so she might as well just take bus. waited for bus and it's over 11.15 and bus still haven come, think will reach class at 11.40 plus so, she decide ti skip tutorial. The End. Lol.

met for lunch with classmates at makan place. maec tutor was there you know! and i skipped her class,thank god, she didnt saw me. went to the the TV room to do BMGT project at around 2plus? finally,the written report of 13pages is done(; left the ppt and presentation is on tues D: left at 6plus and home sweet home.

i saw you and i turned alittle and walked away from you. i can just walked past you then i will see you, you will see me but i chose not to. i dunno why. perhaps, the feeling of walking past like strangers isn't good?and i will really feel sucky,that's why i turned away. you didnt look back but yet, i did. and your nick, why wrote that?I won't think that much because, i didnt want to hear you say, it's nothing about me again.

2009-07-21T07:23:00.000-07:00

alright, today isn't that sucky afterall.laughs. had bmgt article presentation,was fine, just that presentation only took 7mins plus,alittle short?even though the maximum time is 10mins. had blaw lecture today and was not paying attention,busying mugging for maec common test which is after lecture.

took maec common test 2. hmmms, it wasn't that bad as i thought it will be. and im so careless to plus the taxes which should be minus it away from the real GDP.rawr~ hope the qns that i think im right, it's really correct and will pass!( this's most important!)

i was wondering,where's my motivation? There's is motivation for my maec CT1 becos the day before test, i knew something pleasant. But this time, there isn't any motivation.

2009-07-19T00:34:00.000-07:00

I know that I can't be like this
if I say that it's a lie, a lie
will my heart go back

mum wanna watch Marley&me dvd just now, so played and let her watch. Even though i already watched it once before, i still cried just now when i watched it. goodness. i cried 2times watching the same show==" Am i so weak and emotional?oh my oh my. i really hates this coming tues man. rawr~

2009-07-18T10:29:00.000-07:00

I don't know how to make a feeling stops.
every now and then, i still think of you, like an idiot.

out to lot1 for movie with rebecca,tricia,kaikee,ck,kenney,jack,jj,hh,leon,jm. lunched at Ajisen and catched Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. Movie was still alright, not that great and it's more of laughter and romance? it's just so sad that dumbledore is dead and the people are looking at his dead body. me,tricia and rebecca cried. I was in verge of tears at the scene where hermoine cried,perhaps, it's somehow how i felt?whatever~ walked around awhile and home sweet home.

back home and start on POA tutorial. can say it's done? article presentation..can i say it's half done? my part for bmgt project, stucked=x sorry,really. AND I HAVEN START STUDY FOR MAEC ON TUES! *faints* i will really study for it and people, pleaseeeeee pray hard for me kay? i wanna pass derh,seriously, no joke. wish me all your lucks ppl for my MAEC on tues ):

2009-07-17T05:53:00.000-07:00

Today, I'm a little too late .

LMS today was boring. Seems like it's a waste of time. People who pon today's lesson is right.lol. met eileen and went out with her to buy some stuffs. She's sick,take care♥

why am i still stucked here with the stupid article presentation huh? okay,tonight i shall work on it and try my very very very best to finish my part kay! Xiuyu wake up and buck up kay! you still have loads of things to do, you know?so quick, get it done pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee.

was looking at photos from my thumbdrive and saw pictures of the past.

these neoprints are like, 2years ago?laughs. Dearests are loved♥

xiuyu, can you please stop looking at whether someone is online and also,the person's fb? And, why are you hoping today?you idiot .

2009-07-16T08:45:00.000-07:00

wednesday, mass convo with TB27 during maec tutorial.

woke up at 7.55am and still,wasn't late for maec lecture(; lunch with usual peeps at pizza hut. chatted after lunch about lots of things. From Em3, prison break,sad movies/dramas/shows,sky of love,one litre of tears,10 promises to my dog,absolute boyfriend blah blah.yiling actually cried while saying prison break stuffs. She's so cute to say "ohmygosh" while she's in tears. We got damn agitated saying abt the sad shows and how sad every show is,i think our volume is loud too=/ laughs. almost late for bmgt lecture,but not at all. archery training afterwards till 8plus going 9pm?

POA tutorial, bmgt article presentation, bmgt project, DSS PBL2 task, start studying for maec are things i have to do by this week! *faints* bmgt article presentation n maec common test on tues,2 come at same time. hate coming tues! will i still have time to go on sun?idk. sighs.

i'm trying very hard right now;

2009-07-15T01:13:00.000-07:00

Yesterday night, I rolled on my bed, things flashed through my mind, I couldn't sleep and I found my face wet, my pillow soaked. Today i awoke from my sleep, trying to deceive myself that it's a dream but it wasn't because, I can feel the ache inside my heart from last night.

So, from the start, your feelings are deceiving you? You're just having a good first impression of me, nice and adorable like you said and that's all? So, what you said last month, is not true at all? Then why in the first place, did you said you had? Didn't want to make me disappointed? But if you don't have any feelings, you shouldn't had said that, at all. I would rather i got disappointed at that time,really. Yes, and I am so dumb that you had to make things so clear to me, which is so hurtful, so blame on my dumbness.

Understanding takes time,isn't it? If there's a chance for me to understand, i would definitely be pleased to do so. Thinking is different? Do you know what I'm thinking? I don't know yours, how would you know mine? How well do you know that I won't be able to give you the comfort,security, the feeling?In such a short time, you seems to be so sure that i can't gave you all that. So, afterall, you still love your ex, like you had before. Why are you looking for a girl who had the same attributes as her?perhaps, afterall, you're be just living behind her shadow but still, you chose to. I'm not trying to argue with you to make you change your mind, I'm just trying to make you see that, is there really any point in doing so?Yes, i may be younger than you and didn't have the say or rights to talk sense into you, but perhaps, everyone will agree with me for asking you to just get her over? I'm not being selfish to make you forget her so that I can be with you. I'm saying all that because I cared about you, i think it's for your own good. And, you said love is blind, I can't make you change your mind, as if I saying all that for my own good. And the worse is, you said you will start disregard me as a friend if i continue with the arguement?

You said you're sorry and said you tried not to hurt me yesterday night and all this while. Do you know it hurts more when you said all these?It's because, you actually care, and it makes me feel worse. Perhaps, if you didnt even care how i would feel, i won't feel that worse. And I apologize if what i said had made you pissed off because i brought up the issue of your ex with his current boyfriend.

God, tell me how am i going to stop my feelings right now? Why do i have to exists in this world, facing all these? Yes, people will say it's part of my life and I couldn't run away from it , so i just have to face it and move on. Why are the people walking into my life and leaving? Why no one is staying behind? Among all the people i like till now, there's 2 guys that i will bury inside my heart because, i just can't get them over. First is the crush before this and the second one is, the one right now. If there's anything that can numb and cut away my feelings, I would accept it without hesistant because, it's hurtful. I just hope that, I won't take like one year or so, to try to get over this one right now.

2009-07-13T20:18:00.000-07:00

I'd lost myself. Lost myself about what should i do right now.
Is what you had said previously lies?Please tell me it isn't.
But why are things like that right now?I really don't understand. Can you please tell me?
Am i annoying?Perhaps,I'm annoying posting all these craps down here, but at least, I didn't pester you over such stuffs?

Alright,my doubts about elearning are cleared. Next week,there's only elearning for DSS. it's like whhhhyyyyyyyy?! why only DSS? ): I want elearning for bmgt too lahs,rawr~ that means, my article presentation is next tues lo, "thnks" man. cant escape from it *pout* elearning for DSS isnt that great afterall, still got stuffs to do. tutorial,workshop and lecture as usual. and once again, lunch again with TB27.

Have to do DSS tutorial right now, have to hand in before 12midnight, how awesome it is ehs. and have to do MAEC tutorial as well. can i complete both of the tutorials like before 11? so that after that, i can find the article for BMGT and get started for the presentation. Then tmr, other than tutorial to do, have to squeeze time out to start on BMGT project. and tmr DSS tutorial starts earlier,8.45am! means, need wake up earlier also. so many things to do, yet so little time. idiot. F.

2009-07-13T06:14:00.000-07:00

I've only got you inside my mind;
you're driving me off my limits.

school as normal. met Eileen and went home with her. went to buy some stuffs at westmall before heading home. backed home,bathe and sis ask my go collect mum's bday cake at lot1 cos she's down with flu n fever. so, went out to lot1 to collect cake. walked past cotton on and had the temptation to go in and see see,but i managed not to go in,if not, see clothes,sure feel like buying D: reached home,had dinner and time to cut mummy's bday cake. strawberryyyy cakeee,nice. but, i'll prefer chocolateeee.laughs.

can someone please tell me if there's elearning for BS ppl next week?DSS teacher like say next week elearning, but other modules didnt say anything lehs. Actually, i dont like elearning,lol. but i wanted to have elearning next week becos..i haven find article for the article presentation for bmgt next tues yet): and and, bmgt project submission on 24th, not done yet! *faints* PBL2 also like end of this month, plus, MAEC next thurs! *bangs*

I tried, but what i got in return from you, it's all one word replies. Do you notice it?

Happy birthday to mummy,love you♥

2009-07-12T00:42:00.000-07:00

Always on my mind;

Mummy's birthday is tmr. will be going out for dinner later. and, i haven complete my POA tutorial yet man.

Taurus are stubborn, I don't agree with that normally, because I don't find myself stubborn. But now, I found out there's only one area that i will be stubborn with and being stubborn in that area, it's not a good thing for me. And i have no idea why am I determined to carry on with that idea, perhaps, it's the slight hope you have given me from the start.

2009-07-10T23:19:00.000-07:00

I just need you, to talk to me.

Stayed at home the whole day, doing LMS, not yet started for POA. *faints* and i think im so guai that i didnt went bugis with mum and xiuping cos they going iluma to find my sis as my sis today have event there. say till bugis, i wanna eat the chocolate chocolate donut from J.CO. alright,i shall call my sis to buy for me right now. have to get done my part for LMS by today,hopefully before dinner time den i can start on POA at around 8 and then, later, at 9.30pm sharp..i can watch boys before flowers! HOHOHOs.

9july webcam at OurSpace

2009-07-10T08:34:00.000-07:00

1month and 2days had passed since the day you and I knew how we felt towards each other.

Woke up early today and meet LMS peeps for project at OurSpace. Reached class early and was the second group to present. Video was well done,credits to abraham for editing. However,powerpoint wasn't that fine. Diana chee said were too brief though we had a good storyline and, didn't capture the causes of anger in ppt as well. Have to salvage this by doing a good summary report, hence, had to work on it on the weekends and hand in to her by mon or tues.

and and, xiuyu is having muscles ache at her thighs. must be due to the 50 jumping jack ytd during PT. poor meD: and i realized or feels that, my thigh is like getting muscular and bigger sia! OH MY. die~ ~ i loved my legs the most and so please God, don't let it be muscular kay? and and, same for my arms as well.

So, should i quit?hmms,perhaps, a no.

Are you still reading my blog right now?Perhaps, you don't because,you doesn't seems to care right now.
If you are,why didn't you talk to me,seeing my posts?Maybe you are thinking why can't i be the one talking to you first. And my answer will be, I didnt knew how am i going to talk to you first, I dont know why. That time,when i talked to you, your replies seems cold and i never tried to talk to you till now.

And of all, do you still remember what you said to me on msn on second week of June?

Below is the video filmed for LMS project. Me acting as wife,lance as husband,michelle as boss and abraham as tennis coach. it's so funny looking at myself in the video man. so, dont laugh ppl.lol.

2009-07-09T00:05:00.000-07:00

♥ Once again, i had a dream and it's the same person, again.
God, next time, can you please let me dream finished first before i woke up?

Another session of webcamwhoring

caiyan,sijia,xiuyu,rachel

Seen the photos above?yes, it's taken in lecture threatre 38, before BMGT lecture starts, which is like,again.laughs. yup,so the day goes like normal. MAEC lecture, was hungry and sleeppy. BLAW tutorial followed and lunch with usual peeps at canteen 3. Boring BMGT lecture and not paying attention again=x Released early for BMGT so went to OurSpace. Saw Eileen and she give me some of subway cookie,lol. How nice(; webcam with her as well. pictures will upload later. Archery training afterwards. No running for today,isn't it amazing?lol. Training ended at 8plus and home sweet home.

Stucked at LMS right now! Stress. Quick, get over it and done with, the last LMS group project.

I don't know if I'm gonna quit archery. I really don't know. Workload is getting heavier now. I'm being hesistant becos, I still wanna keep contact with the ppl there and there's another thing. If i don't, perhaps, I will go only when I have the time and when busy, only go once a week but the cca points how?I don't know.

2009-07-07T18:52:00.000-07:00

♥
It's the same person in my dream, again.
Why did the person asked that question?
He asked because he's concerned?Maybe, Maybe Not.
I just hope that the person in real life, will too, be concerned.

DSS tutorial early in the morning. Tay Ah Bee said that next lesson gonna start earlier,8.45am and will end earlier. Followed by MAEC tutorial. I didnt knew why i just cant concentrate on MAEC tutorials, dieeee. Topics now are confusing and there's common test2 for MAEC on 21st! wth. If combined results for CT1 and 2 failed, have to retake and study for all the topics tested in CT1 and 2! faints~ dont know why,i just feel that im gonna fail common test2 ):

waited forLMS peeps at library and did alittle on BLAW tutorial,yea, so zibi. But i just wants to be alone today, and yes, that means, i skipped lunch becos, i will DIE if you ask me eat alone.laughs. Did ppt and filming at library and lance's house. Bus to lance's house and dinner there too. It's funny to picture the "wife","husband","tennis coach" and "boss" eating peaceful for dinner. Filming for LMS was fun. Left his house at 10plus and cab home with michelle and abraham.

Finally done with BLAW tutorial. Time now is 1.40am and i wanna go sleep. 9am MAEC lecture tmr. Finally, im able to go for training.

2009-07-06T20:01:00.000-07:00

Did you forget That I was even alive

Did you forget Everything we ever had
Did you forget
Did you forget
About me

BMGT tutorial early in the morning,was really lazy to climb out of bed. Saw dearests before class and also,after DSS workshop. It's a long time since we have meet up with clique. Wants a meet up soon! Lunch with TB27 and went ourspace to get started for DSS tutorial. BLAW lecture followed after that, the lecturer was talking some craps and yet, he can manage to go through all the slides plus,he ended 40mins earlier. Amazed. Next week,it's him as well. Don't really like it becos he speaks damn loud and high pitch at times. Prefers Mrs G.

So many things to complete yet, time doesn't seems to be enough. There's too much on my mind right now, F.

What's wrong with me? On journey to and fro school, when I'm all alone, when I've nothing to do, It's always the same thing appearing on my mind.

2009-07-06T07:26:00.000-07:00

"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"

POA lecture. Lunch with sijia,candice,wanqin,agnes at alumni. POA tutorial. LMS filming afterwards at tennis court. Lots of mosquitoes over there, got several bites ): Still got filming,powerpoint to do for LMS. Not done with LMS project. Perhaps, didnt have time to go for training on thurs again. Still not done with tutorials.

Raining,cold. Anything to warm me up?

How many days had passed?I'd already lost count. There's no point in counting because, it will still carry on? I don't know.

2009-07-05T08:21:00.000-07:00

my sis took this pic and she kept laughing at it. She said i look like im so unhappy and upset that i didnt have the chance to eat the dessert as my dad was happily eating it. but i didnt loh, i didnt knew why i gave that face either D:

Dinner with uncles,aunt,grandma,mummy,daddy and sis today at Happy Restaurant. Mum said i went there before but i don't rmb at all, reason being, i was there when im very young. And got to know that this restaurant is where my big aunt got married,how amazing.laughs. and guess, that's the time i went there.

Food there was not bad. Had shark fins,not that nice but still alright.lol. Was really full after eating. and i wonder how i put on weight since the last time i had my height and weight which is like eh.. year2007? goodness. i think i definitely put on weight lo): but hope, not that much pleaseeee. cab home after that.

yeapyeap,i managed to complete POA yesterday. and i have to start learnt Unit5 for DSS to do the hw ><
and and, blogger is damn weird this few days. can't upload pictures! But, i can still upload through photobucket, thank god.

2009-07-04T02:16:00.000-07:00

♥TB27, BLAW presentation

Is it should be DSS using excel only?Why is this week POA tutorial hw have to do with excel too? >< still have to use excel to do poa tutorial, boringgg. still have to use formula to get the data there, can't just key in. idiotic. Have to try complete POA by today so that she can start on DSS tmr,if not, she won't have time to do on monday as there's filming on monday. For a sudden, i thought that i was in FMS, still got filming to do ==''' But tmr, there's family dinner out near grandma's house. Oh my. and i guess, i can't complete POA by today=x

Boys before flowers tonight :D

It's not that i didn't want to talk to you. It's that i felt that you're not interested in commuicating,i don't know why but are you?

2009-07-03T08:41:00.000-07:00

3july, celebrating tricia's birthday which is 4th(;

jianming hugging kenney?oh my, so gay~ laughs

see,i compiled all tgt.hohohos. click to enlarge and see clearer.
trying to act shuai,cant stand himself, no face see ppl, so covered up his face.lol.

like this the most. all colourful colourful~ lol.

woke up at 7am and met michelle and abraham to go lance's house for filming for LMS project. Since, germaine had left and went malaysia and after that to US for studies,our wife for filming is gone and is either me or michelle be the wife. Ended up, im the wife becos abraham said i looks more like a wife becos of what im wearing today? took train,bus and reached,film for a few scenes. left house at 12plus and we're was late for LMS class for 40mins=x meeting for filming on mon and wed again after school.

meet chingkiat and went to get present for tricia at jp. bought tube from FOX, spectacle box and cake. yea, i knew the spectacle box is funny. dinner at pizza hut with the usual guys,kaikee and tricia. pool afterwards. gave tricia the presents and she really tot that we only gave her the cake.lol. im carrying my colourful bag today, and kaikee is wearing a colourful hair band and kenney is wearing a colourful shirt.hoho. all colourful, so matching. and so, i took quite afew pics of kenney with the colourful things(; haha.

Lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TRICIA baobeiis:D Loves♥

It seems like i didnt knew any of the things you're doing right now. I knew nothing about you, right now. this moment and it sucks.
I'm just trying my luck every week, hoping to see you.

2009-07-02T05:56:00.004-07:00

I ask myself, why am I behaving like this and when I got is, I didn't even knew why.

White top,black skirt,heels are what i thought of being formal for BLAW presentation. People have been commenting on how formal i wore today and i have to repeat many times,saying i have BLAW presentation. BLAW presentation was still alright but got a B+ while others got A. Blame on the article that we're doing is not taught yet and yes, admitted my group wasn't that creative. That's the first B+ today.

Got back my BLAW paper as well. I'm so so so so so so so SAD ): i got B+ and i need 4marks to get an A. And this is the 2nd B+. I wanted an A ): really dunno why my marks always left afew marks to a different grade. POA need 1.5marks to get an A, MAEC need 2marks to B and BLAW 4marks to A. *bang wall* and ended up, this common test, i dun have any As at all ><

I want to know, what are you thinking exactly.

2009-07-01T06:45:00.000-07:00

Passed DSS quiz, passed but didnt did that well. Got back MAEC paper as well. Passed and i left like 2marks to another better grade. what is this man?Why i always left just afew few marks to a different grade?It's has been liddat for POA and MAEC. B+ for POA and C+ for MAEC.so sad lahs): and tmr, will get back my last paper-BLAW. please please please, A for my BLAW, can i?><

BLAW presentation tmr. FORMAL O.o what should i wear?=/

2009-06-30T09:25:00.001-07:00

All I could see is darkness ahead.
The route seems to be coming to a dead end.
There's no way to turn back anything.
There wasn't a way to do that either.
Things seems to be reacting the same way.
My heart is dark and raining inside.
Everything that went past,is making it worse.
Starting to Split and breaking into pieces silently without anyone realizing.
And once again, the rain in my heart is trying to wash away the pain and fear.
The air around is just too hard for me to breathe in.
It's suffocating in there, in my heart.

why it seems like everything, even those tiny little things reminds me of you?
it started from 08/06/09 8:56:59PM but how come, it felt that, it's ending soon? Somehow, i felt that there's none right now.

2009-06-30T04:49:00.000-07:00

My Twilight quote "And so the lion fell in love with the lamb"

Dreams.
Dreamed about someone last night.
Someone rushed forward,knowing I'm injured.
Someone said his heart ache when he saw I'm injured.
Someone held me up and said I'm different from the others.
People said dreams normally won't come true.
I don't wish for the same scenario to happen but, I wish that someone will tell me that I'm different from the others.
Perhaps, it's just wishful thinking, again.

Was asked to set up a business for PBL2. i suggested bags and the rest don't want. Ivan said I'm only thinking of girls bag though i said I'm thinking a whole range of bags. And they said it's too girly?They suggested handphones,car rental. In the end, I picked vote from 3tiny crashed papers as I'm the group leader. And, it's bag. See,it's fated.laughs. lunch at KAP mac with TB27. BLAW lecture after that.

What am i going to wear for BLAW presentation on thurs?Top with high waist skirt or dress?

2009-06-29T03:33:00.000-07:00

Please, come and talk to me.

School as usual for me or shall i say for NP? POA lecture as usual at 11 and as usual, i stare at the lecturer, mind blank of POA=x lunch with rebecca and clique at Canteen2, went to ourspace as there's some free time. POA tutorial after that. Went through tutorial, did the graded assignment. Didnt knew how to do the last qns, luckily it's a 3marks qns. Overall, should be fine just need more time. Got back POA common test paper at end of lesson. Happy with my results:D will be even happier if i can get 1 1/2marks more as it will make a big difference man. I want an A. not getting any papers back tmr. next one will be MAEC on wed D: and i wanna know my BLAW results, can i get an A for that pleaseeee?

I won't ask for more now. What I want now it's just very simple. Just communication.

2009-06-28T05:05:00.000-07:00

And when I think I'm all alone
I can't see the way to go

went to bugis today with sis,mum,aunt and cousin. went to pray first den mum wanna get bedsheets for xiuping so went OG. walked around street for awhile only but then, i still managed to get my white tank top and high waist shorts:D finally,i got myself a high waist shorts(: happy.lol. wanted to buy a dress but cos, aunt wanna go find cousin, didnt have the time for me to look around more and buy. so sis said next time i come den buy. but i was wondering, when's the next time im coming? once school starts tmr, there's even more tutorials to do and i didnt have the time to shop lerh=/ so sadly, i think i gonna miss out that dress><. really love to eat the donut filled with chocolate,yummy. had J.CO donuts and iced chocolate at junction after that.

speaking of school starts, time flies! my 2weeks of holidays had gone. Most of the time spent in camps,projects, gatherings. i really missed camps! i wanna go camp again leh=/ and speaking of camp, i think of IDARE again. why didnt the ppl call me or email me?i wanna go IDAAREEEEEE. why doesn't NP have extended holidays too?i still need more rest. still in holiday mood now=x and guess what?there's poa test tmr that contributes 5% and i haven study. will study for it later then=/ and, im gonna know my poa common test results too! oh my. will know all results by thurs D:

it's all about you;

2009-06-27T09:37:00.000-07:00

How does my heart feels right now? Perhaps,insecure. I really wish to know how you feel towards the others and are you still confused? It has been 5days.

supposingly, it's a class outing but ended up, it's looks much like a clique outing instead. Didnt went to sentosa cos noon time, the weather seems bad. Went out with the usual guys- ck,jj,jackson,shunli,kenney,colin,leon,cheekiong,jianming and also tricia to iluma to catch transformers(;

watch the movie timing at 7.45pm as the earlier timings is either sold out or seats not good. had lunch at pastamania after buying the tickets. it's had been quite some time since i last ate pastamania,so ate my favourite baked rice as usual(; the guys went to play LAN while me and tricia went around street and junction to windowshop. it's really a pain to windowshop man. By walking for few hours, i already wanted to buy like how many stuffs?tmr will be going there with sis and mum, hopefully, tmr i will get to buy them:D Had berrylite yogurt, it's really niceee(; went into a shop that sells music box, wonder how great it would be if it can be recorded and if a guy gave to a girl. laughs.

met the guys after that and movie time. Transformers is really awesome and coool. nicenice. Some parts are funny and touching too, so yea, shed few tears=x hees. Train back home after that. On the way back, kenney was peeling off his skin and throwing at me la! cos he got sunburnt den keep peeling and throw at me while jj kept pulling the ribbon on my bag, hoping i will scold vulgar words out.lol. but i didnt(;

tricia self-entertaining herself??laughs

forgotten to take pics with the guys=x

2009-06-26T07:54:00.000-07:00

OneCamp gathering at FMC attic

BLAW project today in school. Just becos i need to take photos of this book, i have to walk to level2 to fill up a form which took me like for 5mins? and now, groupmates are saying im like a pig, keep eating which i usually don't la, only ytd and today only lo=/ and still say im fat leh. and Ivan is trying to "defame" me D:

Nelson and pohling came school to find me and then we took bus to FMC. waited for ziya and yinhui at the canteen and headed up to the attic. Worship,sharing and followed by dinner. Dinner was not bad. left after that with girls as ziya got gathering and yinhui need to got back to camp. accompanied yinhui and pohling to buy some stuffs at westmall and home sweet home.

i really hope the guys tmr will go for class outing. If not, i dont think i going anymore?cos tricia also maybe not going if the guys not going. ya, i knew you guys have MYE but still, hope your tmr can go.

2009-06-25T03:21:00.000-07:00

went back school for blaw project and i was late. now, my groupmates thought that im like a lazy pig, even though i change the time to meet 1hr later, i still late=x and tmr, will be meeting again,hopefully, to complete the project that we have to present on coming thurs when sch reopens. and the time we're meeting is 10am. i think that, im gonna be late again leh=x laughs. so, are we gonna video tmr?or just normal presentation?perhaps, just a normal one, shall focus more on content.will be going to FMC tmr night, meeting OneCamp people for dinner.

2009-06-24T03:39:00.000-07:00

"I wanted you to be there when i fall,
i wanted you to see me through it all,
i wanted you to be the one i loved,
i wanted you".

meet up with michelle,germaine,abraham and lance for LMS project today in school. was told to do role play and the casts will be.. germaine,lance and abraham. haha! so, me and michelle will be the scriptwriters:D laughs. just discussed online with michelle and we're done with the awesome script.hahaha. so looking forward to the filming. but then, ppt will be siann ba?=/ went to KP mac for lunch with michelle and lance. home sweet home after that. im half done with poa tutorial, like finally. gonna continue and perhaps, finish it up by tonight!

stucked there in my mind;

2009-06-23T08:25:00.000-07:00

photos from archery again(; laughs

poor me D:

me and celine looking at our photos,lol.

really have fun playing this game, though it's kinda unglam and we snatch till quite scary.laughs

Group photos!

Xiuyu now missed all the camps she had! D:

2009-06-23T00:43:00.000-07:00

22june Singapore Flyer with girls(;

♥loves Beeleng, Eileen, Joey and Jessica
next meet up, not just the girls but the 2guys too.

went for archery training today. sorry for letting yingmei and xueting for waiting for me=x lunch at megabites with celine,jannah and belinda. the food there is nice and worth it. was really full after eating, so kelvin should went there eat, and not just becos of the mega fried rice that he ordered last time and stop him from going there.lol. left after lunch as i have to do project.

goodness, im still stuck at reading my poa notes lo. still not getting started. is like since when i say i want to start eh?=x oh my. must must must really START today!

There's him in the past who made me really lost, made me seen darkness, made me feel so clinging on him, made me really heartbroken as well? Though i fall for him just knowing for a short period of time, i like him for really long and i didn't just fall for him once, it's twice and the whole process is long, almost 1year i guess? Even though i knew that it's impossible between me and him, i still cling on to some hopeless hope on him foolishly and till that time, he's the one that i really love and he just seems to be everything for me that time. But now, you overtook him and made me gotten over him, which he has been in a corner of my heart for a long time. You even made me threw away the essay that he wrote for me like 1year plus ago. Though i cried for some guys, he's the first that really matters and makes me really upset though we're not even together,i don't know why. If there is a second one, i guess, it would be you. I can got over a guy that i really love for almost 1year and so, i hope you can too.

2009-06-22T08:10:00.000-07:00

meet up with girls today. went for dinner at marina, singapore flyer after that. photos again and home sweet home(; archery training tmr~ more photos will be uploaded once i got them from leen(;

Now, i realized it's not just her,there's still others out there. How many is there?i don't know. And i thought that you just only can't get over her and thought that i'm the one that you have feelings for but i knew that im wrong when you said that you're confused, that's the worse of all and that left me speechless. No matter how many are there out there, i won't give up right now? because, i believe that i have to try my best till the very last moment which i always do? perhaps, you may think that i'll regret later when i choose you when there's others out in the whole world but i won't because it's my own decision and no one limit the choice.i chose it myself. and what's wrong with me? i didnt knew how to express myself out but one thing that i knew is, i'm falling for you deeper than i should? Sometimes, i just can't take you off my mind, i don't know why. i just hope that you will one day, eventually, get over her and hope she's not the only one in your eyes and hope you won't make her to be the standard for others cos afterall, you might just be living behind her reflections.

2009-06-21T23:01:00.000-07:00

photos from archery camp again(:

i really love the backgrounds(; laughs

the flying chicken?

water bombs time.

forfeit poker game. in a damn weird posture D:

i guess i'm in the photo, but i can't find myself?lol

dawn,jannah,me and celine(;

2009-06-21T05:21:00.000-07:00

Someone, tell me that i exists in his world;

went out with mum to lot1 as she wants to get some fertilizer for her plants from the pasar malam and i bought a skirt today too(; thank god that my eye is no longer swollen anymore(; tmr will be meeting clique without the 2guys becos jude had his judo training and also, his test on tues and we suppose,jon won't want to go without him. so, goodluck for his judo test and his upcoming MYE(; will be going out in the evening to meet for dinner and also, singapore flyer:D can't wait to see them girls. gonna camwhore tmr again, i guess?lol=x

and i still not getting started for my hw lehs, oh my. have to really start poa tutorial hw later,really! wed and thurs will be meeting for LMS and BLAW projects respectively. suddenly, i felt that i have so many things on for saturday. there's training, there's 4e2 outing, there's OneCamp station masters meet up. how how how?! i already said i will go for class outing leh, plus i think im gonna nag by the guys for not going?=x but they going sentosa sia=/ i definitely will get sunburnt again. and now, my nose is peeling off le lah! :( goodness.

do i matters to you?

2009-06-20T01:24:00.000-07:00

pictures pictures(:

playing dodge ball

Sentosa

photos taken during stations and mini games.

heart-shaped?

well, i think i look weird and funny for some pics but whatever ehs.
More photos on the way. thanks Danny Lim for all the photos taken and uploaded(;

have training for today but didn't go for it because, my right eye was a little swollen and plus, i was really tired after 5days straight of camps. Though, it's tiring but it's worth it cos it's fun.laughs. and so, i slept for more than 12hrs last night=x lol. today is already saturday, which means, my 1week of hols is almost goneD: goodness. think have to get started with my homeworks today,which i dun really wish to but no choice=/ will be meeting with LMS groupmates to get started for project on wed and also, one day to do blaw project since we gonna present when sch starts.and and, i think i got some dunno what bites or whatever you called it from sandfliesD: i feel like dying man, got red spots down there at the top of my right leg. hopefully, i will be gone asap and left with nth.

may not be meeting clique on tues for flyer cos jude was busy on that day. will find another day for meet up which we will discuss later tonight when all of us came online(; boys before flowers tonight,haha.

2009-06-19T06:45:00.000-07:00

17-19June Archery camp in NP and Sentosa

some photos taken with celine(;

dunno why the guys started to go round taking pics, while some taupok ppl.lol.

me, celine and jannah

1st day

met at canteen 2. broke into groups. was grouped in group5. went into classrooms that was at 3rd level of the sports hall building, shared room together with group4 and 5 which got girls including me,xueting,jannah and celine which joined us at the night cos of her attachment and also the rest of the guys. mostly games for the day and i remembered playing musical chair which the seniors asked us to pass round a plate which contains, flour, flour and egg, flour,egg and meat etc. and i got my face pushed down by the seniors which contains, flour,egg and meat,eeew. disgusting, it's smelly, made my face hardens after that.luckily, it was wash up after that game. and i did remembered me and xueting and the rest was like kidnapping dawn with sleeping bags.laughs.

after dinner, went to lecture theatre to watch movie. Danny said it's madagascar but in fact,it's not but it's horror movie. purposely made us watch horror movie just before the night walk around blk50=/ watched 2movies, sisters-a thai movie and red eye-korean movie. for both,im like just watch half of the show cos i covered us my eyes for some parts and also my ears,hee(;. night walk with 3guys which they randomly team us up. ya right, i did scream. and i think i scream at almost everything lo except for like one?=x goodness. and dunno why i so suay,im always the one got hit by the teddy bear which they either suddenly throw down or swing by the side=/

2nd day

went to sentosa for games and stayed there like almost going a day. have to go through the stations and also the mini games. was having difficulty finding the black lorry and we all thought it's a real lorry so we even went to the carpark to find, but the fact is, it's not. have quite alot of photos taken by Danny Lim mostly becos of the mini games and also, he asked me and celine to take solo picture which i don't undertstand why. option dinner at the end of the day. luckily, my group didnt get the vegetables,lol. but still, we share our food among the groups(; played games with room mates and also, have some boys girls talk with celine,zul,weijian and one guy, i forgot his name=x

last day

thought that we will be leaving at around 12plus or 1pm but it's not. it's till 6pm. guessed this should be my first camp that ended so late. made and played water bombs. played captain ball using stuffs like, newspaper rolled up into a ball, tomato,papaya,cabbage,broccoli,squid,chicken. the squid really smells the worst, my hands at that time got the black ink and the smell. after that was dog and bone game where we have to run into a blue tarp with soap and water and catch the bottle at the middle. all junior girls was asked to get the bottle and the rest trap us inside with the soap and muddy water and also splashed more water and i think we snatch till kinda scary,laughs.

the last game is obstacle course where we have to bite apple from a pail of weird coloured water and have to lizard crawl on a blue tarp with syrups,flour all that, dirty. and we was being splashed by a water bomb that was soaked with squid, that was really omg. somehow, i felt that i was having retribution,lol. cos OneCamp my station also require them to crawl on the blue tarp but then at least, theirs are so much cleaner.

wash up after that and followed by debrief. overall, the camp was fun but hopefully, next time they wont use squid to let us play and hope it's more clean. laughs. and ohya, i forgot to mention something. i got sunburn like always D: goodness, hope my skin wont peel off, please please please.

above was just some photos, guess there are more to come. will upload once i get all the pictures:D

i hope the some won't drop down to none;

2009-06-19T06:05:00.000-07:00

15-17June OneCamp@Dairy Farm Campsite

photos taken inside our bunk

photo taken before leaving campsite with the girls

yinhui and me. taken during our morning shift at like 5plus?

station masters being ask to help serve dinner.

few of us being waitress for fear factor game. laughs.

OneCamp overall is alright.i didnt say it's really fun becos i was one of the station masters so im not the one playing all the games la.lol. help out the camp throughout for its games and activites and also did the morning shift with yinhui and also, help serving food for one day.

First day was mostly preparing for wet station games which im in charge of the inter-relay with a guy named bon. i just remembered that it was really really tiring to carry all the water bombs and stuffs from the campsite to the field at bukit timah nature reserve. and also, we tried the coke with mentos to see if it will explode and it did, and the group im taking put the mentos without them saying to start and got splash by some of the coke=/ night walk at the night and was stationed with Nelson at station 1. my 1st time seeing a firefly during that night. people didnt got shocked by the bomb bag ehs, only one gal scream which nelson they all said she almost scream at anything?lol.

second day was the superhero games which is like amazing race and was stationed with caleb at the multi-storey carpark leading the "awesome phrases" game. at the night was the finale night where it is the time for the groups to perform and also the mass dance, but left early with yinhui and eileen cos having archery camp the next day. was getting kinda emotional saying goodbye to the girls,perhaps it's becos it has been a long time since we met and ya.. shall meet up with them one day. perhaps during the gathering organized by Jean.

2009-06-14T05:18:00.000-07:00

high tea buffet with family today at jurong point, Gourmet Kitchen to celebrate fathers' day(; food there was not bad, was really full after eating. shopped around after that and yeap, home sweet home. rented "He's just not that into you" dvd back and gonna watch it with my sisters later during the night.

OneCamp is just tmr, and i haven pack anything yet. just the utensils only,haha. gonna pack them later on. archery camp packing list is finally out. cant imagine i still have to pack for archery camp after being so tired for my OneCamp when i returned on tues? and ohya, i dunno why i think archery camp is at sentosa lo, maybe i got hearing problems den listen wrongly in the 1st place?lol. cos it's actually, in school ==" so perhaps, i will get to see eileen at school during camp! LOL.

have to wake up really early tmr, like 5plus? have to reach fmc at 7am=/ hopefully, i will fall alsleep right fast tonight becos, im having difficulty falling alsleep lately, i dunno why.

im gonna miss my bed,seriouly,lol. and also, my clique and all of you.

2 of us zi pai, lol=x

with 2nd sis(:

2009-06-13T01:07:00.003-07:00

yesterday night, i couldn't sleep. i didnt knew why, i just seems to be wide awake though it's already past 2am? i tried various ways to fall alsleep but it seems to fail. Thankfully, by some means, i fell alsleep.

woke up at around 8plus today and went for OneCamp meeting at fmc. eileen,yinhui,pohling,joyce,celest were there too cos we're all station masters. Had the briefing went on and then had a little time for refreshment,briefing again and then,mass dance. Yes, we gonna learn the mass dance only today and in like less than 1hr? still alright cos the steps ain't that difficult but still, we did look at the person teaching us cos we's still abit blur.lol.

this time the camp is combined with faithacts and tacklebox ppl, i still prefer camps that it's just purely GBs and BBs because,we're much more closer as compared. but still, hope the camp was fun(;

ohya, i forgot to mention yesterday that i was pondering which dress of mine needs a belt when i was in a shop selling belts.haha. i kept think think think but still, dunno which dress so i gave up. Then, today, i remembered!lol. it's actually a tube but i wear a sleeveles inside den i mix and match myself. now thinking of the image of the belts i seen ytd, i dunno izzit alright? whatever. i still have ample time to buy belt for that(; lol

see, this is my first plush toy i had and the first my dad bought for me and now, it looks so pathetic, see my mickey's hands? ): and so, im gonna stitch it well for him later on. If not, mum gonna ask my throw it away again, which she said before many many times but still, i want it(; though i still have the other mickeys:D

12june(;

tying friendship band and beeleng said i'm slow at tying D:

♥ Dearests

i don't want to guess anymore but that doesn't means i didn't want to know why.
Sometimes, it's not that i want to be pessimistic but it made me to.

2009-06-12T06:43:00.000-07:00

had my last common test paper today which is.. BLAW! :D overall, i think the paper is still alright?hope can do well for this paper,though i'm alittle worried for my LAC format qns?D: now,no point pondering over things that had already been done. Now, i should just enjoy my long awaiting holidayyyyyyys:D

out with dearests and sijia today to pizza hut to dine at jurong point. walked around jp and also, went back to shop to visit xiufeng and mimie too. went back home afterwards and then, came out again with mum to meet dajie and went ntuc fairprice cos mum gotta get some groceries. dinner at Lot1 too and home sweet home.

gonna watch online for boys before flowers for the eps i missed last sat later, or shall i say after i blogged?yupyup(; gotta wake up tmr at around 8plus to go Faith Methodist Church for camp briefing ~

Some plans for holidays:

13 June (sat) - OneCamp briefing at FMC.
14 June(sun) - shd be out celebrating fathers' day?
15 June-16 June - OneCamp at Dairy Farm(;
17 June-19 June - Archery camp at sentosa?
23 June - Meet up with clique to Singapore flyer!:D
27 June - 4e2'08 class outing to...?

see, for next week, im just gonna to sleep on my bed for like 3days?i'm gonna miss my bed ehs.

It's so very cold outside
like the way I'm feeling inside

2009-06-11T00:04:00.000-07:00

last paper for CT is tmr and.. it's BLAW! im gonna die from remembering so much cases?? quick,it's gonna be over soon. and tmr gonna mark the end of CT and start of my long awaiting holidayyyyyyys.

gotta go back to my BLAW notes now. Now say, BLAW i love you D:

2009-06-10T04:25:00.000-07:00

Just done studying for legal system and law of contract1. still have law of contract2 and 3 to go and also more reading in text?there's like already several cases to remember just for law of contract1. and i still have more for the other 2contracts.goodness. Xiuyu thinks that she need a bigger brain now in order to remember and memorize all the law principles and cases. perhaps, i knew the reasons why im so lazy to study. some of the people are already having their holidays while im still stucked here with blaw D: Beeleng had already finished her CT yesterday): and tmr's is eileen's last paper. see! im the last><>

feeling unease;

2009-06-09T22:37:00.000-07:00

Confessions;

woke up early again today becos maec paper starts at 8.30am. took maec paper at sports hall today. though this paper is just MCQs and True or False qns, it doesnt seems real easy afterall?made mistakes againD: saddens. now,no point pondering over maec cos there's still blaw on friday! D: and it's gonna be my last paper,so jyjy!

went for lunch with rebecca and clique at beauty world. initially,when i never eat anything,im feeling fine.after i ate the oreo cheesecake, i got gastric?! damn painful,so went home straight without playing pool with them guys. and it made me no mood. luckily,i feel better now.

Im so lazy to start studying right now=x Xiuyu needs motivation right now.

I didn't knew why you still can't get over her but,i won't ask for the reasons from you because i believed both of you went through many things before?i don't know,I'm just guessing. So,you will try to let her go, will you?

Somehow, i feel that i'm falling deeper .

2009-06-08T01:46:00.000-07:00

Xiuyu don't want to study for tests and and sit for her tests, can she?Nope, definitely nooooo.
Xiuyu just wants to have her holidays right now. Yes, now. ><

perhaps, after my common test, i will ask the question.

2009-06-07T08:10:00.000-07:00

take me to a place with only peace and happiness.

was really very tired yesterday,i wondered why. already felt like sleeping at 9pm and went to sleep at 9.20 liddat even without watching boys before flowers la D: i hanged on to the last moment till i can't stand it anymore. den,i woke up today at 12pm. yes,i knew i'm like a pig.slept for more than 12hrs=x but that's really unusual kay..

studied for MAEC for 2topics le. have 2more to go. and now, i should be studying but im right here blogging and facebook-ing D: jiayous! just 2more papers and i can enjoy my holidays!

i didnt knew izzit considered normal for you not to talk to me for this few days or izzit really because you don't want to talk to me?today is already the 5th day.
it just really seems that you, still care and like her, ain't you?so actually, you didnt even get over her yet. if you think i shouldn't like you, then at least you should let me know the reason why?i'm like so lost,didn't knew what's wrong about everything.

2009-06-06T00:45:00.000-07:00

yes, i knew that i will be gone and wont be blogging but i still need a break from the exams right?lol. Had POA common test for today. overall,it's still considered alright?hope i will do fine though i made careless mistakesD: next, it's MAEC on tues and BLAW on fri. i have to loveeeee MAEC and BLAW becos, i have to memorise them?D:

went to collect passport with eileen after exam. had lunch with dearests at westmall and they went back sch for revision while i went back home cos i didnt bring anything out for revision. boys before flowers on channel U today at 9.30pm^^

everything that is happening, i caused it upon myself .
I regretted all the things i mentioned here and i knew that i can't take it back.

i really can't stand the silence from you.

2009-06-05T03:58:00.000-07:00

LMS presentation today. She asked like sooooo many qns and she can't understand what we trying to say? D: hopefully, she will at least give us a B cos she mentioned we are at least better than one of the group that presents the same qns? met beeleng dearest and went makan place cos she havent have lunch yet. went home with her after that.

Now, xiuyu can't go facebook for restaurant city and friends for sale and also cant blog for the next few days. WHY?! because, xiuyu is gonna have her 1st ever poa common test tmr! Oh my. have to get to revision right now, yes, now. byeeeeeeeee(; wish me lucks people!

sometimes,when you hope for something,it didnt appear,you will just think,it's okay.you're just thinking too much. but what if when you hope for that thing, and it appears?that's like...it can't be describe. you just have to been through it to know how it feels. today, it's the 3rd day, 3rd day for what?do you know?perhaps, you didnt even care and so why should i right? and i have a feeling that it will last for even more days?i don't know.

2009-06-04T00:23:00.000-07:00

woke up at 7.56am today,sms sijia to ask her go school first cos im sure damn late. saw eileen at bus interchange and took bus to school with her. was late for lecture,clocked in at 9.18am D: cant find where rebecca they all and sit at a side first after that jiu go move sit with them. after that was blaw tutorial, was told to wear really formal for blaw presentation when school starts after the holidays. so, have to see the wardrobe and see what i can wear,haaaaa.

lunch at makan place. rebecca has been starting to eat her lunch from 1pm today. She ate.. laksa,ice kachang, apple,pear,fried prawn,2packs of cuttlefish, wangwang biscuit,white crackers(wheel-shaped),calbee tibits! see, she ate 9 food items just for her lunch! isnt that AMAZING,TERRIFYING?? LOL! she seems to being born to eat=x heeeeesxD rebecca,you must be happy that i blogged half of my post about you ehs^^ and now,it's 4pm,she's still eating. i wondered how long she need to eat all her food ehs.lol.

bmgt lecture again. boringgggggggggg D: webcam pics with weixin,rachel,rebecca,sijia,wongyi. there's like 30photos below. enjoy,haha.

2009-06-02T21:30:00.000-07:00

where's beelengg,jess and jon?haaa

Met clique,without beeleng and jon for lunch at mac. went around westmall and then went back to np to play board games. went for poa revision lecture with rebecca and clique at LT78. lecture ended earlier than 7pm and home sweet home with beeleng dearest and sijia.

Xiuyu is tired, really tired. Needs more sleep. Needs more time to complete homeworks,presentations and projects. Needs more time to study for common test! have to rush do blaw hw and presentation for LMS by today if not latest by tmr.

Control;

2009-06-02T01:30:00.000-07:00

Xiuyu is somehow, lost ?

met beeleng dearest today and went school today. BMGT tutorial then followed by DSS workshop. yes, there's presentation for DSS PBL1 today. we took turns to go in to present by groups. and i think i took quite long for a group to present. and i don't think that it's a real presntation at all. it looks much like the tutor is testing to see if you know how to do some stuffs. hopefully, my group presentation will be alright and i wont failed for anything? goodlucks to those ppl who haven present their work then(:

gonna have DSS hands-onn quiz tmr D: goodness. wish me lucks,pleaseeeeee(;

now, you knew everything, aint you? Can you pretend you didn't knew anything at all?Don't ask me why,i just felt that it will be better because at least, i will still dare to face you?if not, i dunno how am i going to face you. i really didnt knew why you say i shouldn't feel any emotions towards someone like you, what's wrong with someone like you? i don't know. and i hope that you kept all this to yourself and dont let anyone knew about it.

2009-05-31T20:38:00.000-07:00

woke up early in the morning at 6am to meet clique(without joey) at batok mac for breakfast. joey,get well soon kay!:D it has been a real long time since i woke up so early in the morning and it's like i just closed my eyes for few minutes and it's already time to wake up. and im right, my mum seems to think im crazy for waking up so early for breakfast. normally,i just wont take breakfast but this time is different becos i meeting my clique! so have to force myself to wake up. have a great time having breakfast with them(;

jude koh waited for us to take bus before he goes off,how nice ehs.haha. and me together with dearests,jess,jon went school tgt. since dearests and jon start class at 9am, me and jess went to library to watch movie. watched the jap movie,10 promises with my dog. didnt watched it to the end cos my lecture starts at 11am and it's time to go before the show ended. and so, luckily i didnt watched to the end cos i think i will be damn sad and i will end up crying to lecture. haha! and now guess what?i blogging during my poa lecture! goodness goodness. i need to have self-discipline! D:

xiuyu wants to have another meet up with clique as a whole again:D

indeed, you can brighten up my day just by your small actions that you might not notice it yourself.

2009-05-31T00:26:00.000-07:00

i look into the mirror&knew that i won't be the one for you.

i didnt wake up early today which also means that,i didnt went bugis with my mum and sis. it's kinda rare that i was given a chance to shop but i didnt go,probably becos im broke and i didnt want to use my mum or sis's money?whatever it is, i shall wait for a time that i have all the mood for shopping that i will go shop yea? so,im now stucked at home with the never-ending homeworks. boorinnggggggggg D: and i think i cant concentrate on my work when im on facebook manD: goodness. and im so tired fighting with kenney on friends for sale,idiot him. luckily,my owner now is jess:D love you,jess!haha. someone,please come and brighten up my day, yes you.

i knew that i was wrong, very wrong, wrong from the very beginning and now, i cant let myself do the wrongs furthermore.

2009-05-30T01:31:00.000-07:00

loves my 4e2(;

rebecca,tricia and me. kaikee was busying playing pool so she's not in the photos.lol.

with kenney. and he's trying to imidate me but failed and i think he has a constipated face=x haha. and, dun fight with me on friends for sale anymore leh,idiot.hahahaa.

photos with kenney,jackson,jianming,jiajie and chingkiat. others are playing pool~

it's ending of elearning week, like finally. elearning is really not productive at all, don't like it. becos of elearning, i got so many things that have to be handed in such a short period of time. it has been a week ago since last met my clique. i wanna meet up with them. but think there's isnt much time for next week becos common test is nearing and workload is getting heavier? perhaps can only meet after the common test):

sis ask me to go bugis with her and mum tmr.but,u noe what time i have to wake up?like 10am lehs. and i haven complete my hw yets,sianns. so should i go with them tmr?or should i not? i really really really want to shop sia but im broke. sadT.T and why is GSS come at the time when im broke?! wth.

♥ no, it shouldn't says it's full of your messages. i should say,i kept yours and deleted the others. and i don't know why I'm doing this. Foolish. and even more foolish to hope for anything from you.

2009-05-29T09:24:00.000-07:00

it's friday again. was suppose to meet sijia and go school with her at 9.10am but i overslept so she went school first.and then,i got headache,so i slept alittle longer.so ended up,i met them at ourspace at like 12pm?=x did alittle little bit of DSS work and then headed for LMS class which starts at 1pm. after class, went to library to do some DSS work again and also,met with chingkiat and clique. they have been there since like dunno what time watching videos. headed for pizza hut for dinner after that. joycelyn left earlier and the rest of us went to play pool. played and stayed there till 9plus and took bus back home with jackson and jianming. and and, we have some photos taken too!:D only have afew pics at the bottom of the post cos most photos are with rebecca and she didnt online which she said she will la.haha. it's a really rare chance to gather us together, so, we should have more meet ups!

OH MY. i still havent done with DSS! it sucks, really sucks. hate it. lol. most ppl who took this module,think it sucks too.haha. i am so so so so tired and there's still lots of work haven complete yet, so, im not going for archery tmr=x erjie staying at fren's hse today and dajie slept le. left me awake for this whole night! ><

yes,i know it's blur.

the girls^^

♥ my whole message inbox is full of your messages and i didn't knew how many times i repeatedly read your sms.

2009-05-28T07:33:00.000-07:00

went to school earlier today to meet rebecca and jasmine to do DSS. ended up, i like only completed the DSS quiz and i started to watch boys before flowers korean drama=x lol. went for archery after that. did running again and this time,i really run damn slow maybe becos of the sandwiches i ate haven digest yet den gastric pain. after that is shooting all the way. training ended late today again,ended at 7plus going 8pm. went to makan place to have dinner with archery ppl. didnt ate much cos mum brought food for me so just get cookies and drink. have a feeling that saturday training gonna be tough becos it's the coach taking us and the seniors will be going for competition. not sure whether will be going to see them compete not.

still stucked at DSS applications,oh my. guess i have to do most of it today becos tmr there won't be much time?tmr having LMS lesson from 1 to 4 and then meeting sec sch frens for dinner atbukit timah plaza derh pizza hut and the jc ppl are coming to np to slack,how strange of them.haha.

the last time we met up which is like months ago

and i just can't wait for june holidays to start! becos i cant wait to meet my girls for gb camp:D and we shall took loads and loads of photos like what ziya said.haha. but before the holidays, there comes the terrifying common test first.haha.

i have to be content with what i have and not asking for more;

2009-05-27T02:10:00.000-07:00

xiuyu wants time to hold still, hopefully it can just stops for yesterday.

edited post

out with eileen to go ICA building to make passport. it can be collected on monday but doubt i will collect it on that day,but still,must be collected within 1month. after that went to eat at westmall kfc and bought food for joey and met her at the bus interchange.took 61 to school to do homework and saw rebecca and clique and sitted next to them. archery training tmr. will be meeting rebecca and jasmine to do hw before training starts. shall continue with the homeworks again ~

done the poa quiz at night and was like kinda nervous,lol. i dunno why. scored pretty not bad,at least it's much much better than the 1st quiz which is like gone case=/ so,i have done with poa elearning and most of bmgt and blaw too. and i left, the untouch DSS right now. sianns~ DSS, please leave me alone and i will definitely be very grateful:D

i have to learn, have to try to avoid from seeing you. but it just seems to be difficult. difficult for me just to turn away from you and stop trying to want to talk to you. i shall continue to stop myself or try stopping myself because, the worst of everything is, you don't know who exactly the person i'm saying. but still, i'm also afraid of letting you so just leave it to be silence.

2009-05-26T06:00:00.001-07:00

oh man. i suddenly realized there's like so many works to be handed in by this week all thanks to the e-learning week man. am i alittle too slow for noticing that?idiot. stupid e-learning week. damn.

2009-05-26T01:19:00.000-07:00

you're a person who is just too friendly and you still can't seems to get over her,am i right? maybe i have been wrong from the start, from the very beginning when i saw you,met you,knew you and everything. So, shall just stop and control myself? but do you know that your actions make me hesistant?hesistant whether i should really stop myself? damn.

went back school for studying or should i say for poa instead?got help with poa homework frm CJ,thank you(; i guessed i didnt made you vomit blood lah. met eileen,jesst and shuting at the underpass today. and this is for shuting: thanks shuting for wishing me happy birthday across the road that day!:D haha. see,i did mentioned here today,though it's kinda late=x lol. natalie and eddie(i didnt knew if i spelled correctly=x) was there too. after that both of them went for training while i went back with CJ.waited for 985 for very long. and i saw jude koh on bus!haha. i hope you're not late for yr driving eh?haha.and i walked all the way to buy the stupid pandan cakes and guess what?i didnt managed to buy any,wasted my energy to walk all the way=/

tmr should be going to ICA with eileen to make passport.it seems that i'm making passport partly for the sake of going IDARE camp. so, please bless me that i will be selected for the camp with eileen kay!lol. done with poa hw,like finally,but i haven do the graded quiz yet!scare ehs. and im going to be done with dss unit3 applications:D and next,what shd i do?hmms, go though blaw lecture and do boringgg bmgt hw D:

2009-05-25T01:24:00.000-07:00

take one step at a time,there's no need to rush,it's like learning to fly or falling in love;

poa homework, going through poa elearning lecture, poa word search game.. it's all about poa today! sianns~ and i just couldn't find the last word for the wors search game,so i gave up,thinking that i shalll do it later when more ppl done it so i can ask them what is the word=x speaking of poa, tmr will be going back school cos someone is gonna teach me poa. i really feel that he will vomit blood teaching me though he says im not that dumb,so let's just see.

later i shall do my DSS hw lerh cos it's due tmr midnight=/

I no longer have to think that what if i have two choices because, one of the choices is gone. now, there's no more reason for me to cling on anymore because,he seems to find the right one for himself . and so, i really have to wake up and really really promised and made sure i wont ever ever fall into that trap by him anymore,not again. And so, i hope you wont be like him, hope that you are really different from him.

2009-05-24T07:53:00.000-07:00

photos taken last friday.

celebration for my belated and jon's advance birthday.

beeleng dearest:D

2009-05-23T06:42:00.000-07:00

it isn't easy for me to stop thinking;

happy birthday to emily(;

jasmine&rebecca(;

yeaps, went for archery today in the morning. did PT for like 1 hour and we didnt just merely do warmup,we still did crunches all that and even, campus run! Oh my. really sweat alot and tired,lol.rebecca and jasmine didnt do PT becos rebecca is sick and jasmine couldnt do vigorous exercises as she just plucked her teeth and it will bleed if she does exercises. the two of them takecare kay! and it's emily's birthday today,so took some pics. had early lunch today at makan place and den after that proceed with shooting all the way. i think i was really tired cos i took nap today. and it's like u know,rare.haha. cos i only took naps for 2reasons:after camp and after swimming. yeap, so, i was real beat. and ohya, i passed my archery test, for both theory and practical:Dhaha. though i knew that i passed from CJ yesterday, i still afraid i will fail. i dunno why.lol

e-learning next week, which means, dunnid to go school for classes but still, there's hw on MeL and have to self-study. i have a feeling that if i stayed at home, i wont be able to complete my work and and, im now it's so lazy to start on any hw, oh my.

i really don't know how to handle it. Sometimes, when you are just there, i will tend to look and if i did that, i knew that, as time passes, i'm going to fall deep?that's really not what i want.maybe people will think it's strange why do i have to limit and control myself. the answer is very simple, you just won't ever have any feelings towards me, ain't you?

2009-05-22T00:27:00.000-07:00

I can't seems to know how he look like because, you are taking over him;

after LMS lesson,took bus and met clique!;D webcam with eileen while waiting for the rest to come. and eileen tried to strangle me! D:

yes, celebrated m belated and jon's advanced birthday today at SP.lol! feels weird n funny to be in SP when im a NP student. pool, wii, cut cake, open presents . and i think i sucks at playing the drum,ha. im just not the type of person who likes drums.

ohwell, for the presents right, i dunno what to say lahs. i just think that jon must be damn paiseh when he realized what he opened but it's still not so bad for me.lol. i wont say i love the presents,haha=x but still, it's still the thoughts that counts and i still love them!:D and they even took a video for the process of opening the presents. and and, i bet eileen will put on facebook D: ohya, jeremy tan n his frens and also jess's frens will there too. went to batok mac after that for some food and home sweet homee. and ya, jess, we're reallly sorry about that thing=x and and and, we didnt take a group photo!how sad. it seems to be a rare chance to gather us all tgt after quite some time.

2009-05-21T07:33:00.000-07:00

i love this pic;D partly because..it's pink too(;

school as usual today.and so, bmgt lecture is still booorinngggg D: although there's a change of lecturer,it's still the same and i think it's worse?=x archery training afterwards. there's no shooting today becos there's lightening and thunder O.o just having bow practice and also, PT! ran 2rounds at the beginning and then,at the end, we still have a night run which they said it's quite relax but,i think the distance we ran for that is longer than the previous2 ehs.lol. but,it's really better to run during nightime(; cool wind and i felt that we are more high during the night run.lol. though the activities doesnt seems to take very long, i left school at around 8plus cos training ends at like going 8pm?it's really a long day for today. and now, i still couldnt seems to get started with my homework! Oh my.

meeting LMS group at 11am to do project and after that..celebration! ;D

without you, today

2009-05-20T00:46:00.000-07:00

yes,today is 20th May. and it's the official day i turned 17th;D

this post is mostly photos taken from webcam.haha. webcam with eileen last night and there she held a paper wishing me happy birthday.so sweet ehs~ and there's one unglam pic that i dun wanna post and let you ppl see leh,lol=x and and, not forgetting, joey's msn display pic! thanks loads to joey for putting a webcam video on her display pic to wish me happy bday yea:D and really thanks people who wished me happy birthday either by sms,msn or any other ways(; and thanks my class ppl for the bday song and also the cake last week(; webcam with kaikee during my maec tutorial too!=x haha. i can't imagine my tutor seeing me pose to my laptop lah. lunched with kaikee and her frens and met eileen and did some work at library.webcam with her though we at the same place,lol. photos are at the bottom as well.

I'm really glad to have my dearests with me all this while(; Beeleng for more than 6years since primary5 and eileen for more than4years since sec1 and our friendship will continue for many many many more years till it's countless. Not matter what troubles I had or faced, they will always be there for me and just like me being there for them too(; really love them loads loads:D i love Beeleng andEileen yea(; haha.EE

i still haven get started with my blaw hw,goodness. and my phone just can't bluetooth to my lappy,taoyan. archery training tmr~

out with dearests,joey,jess,jude and jon on friday for celebration for jon and my bday. can't wait to see them guys! ;D

alright, i think i have already fall for it and is there anyway for me to stop and turned away from it?if there isn't any way to do so, i would just kept it to myself and hope that you will not be like him.

2009-05-18T20:46:00.000-07:00

for some reason, i felt that you know who I'm saying all this while.

school as usual today.started class at 9am for bmgt and then DSS workshop.after that, lunch with classmates. again,we're having DSS lunch.lol. becos, we did DSS together after lunch. after that is blaw lecture,met rebecca and clique.and, they surprised me by suddenly popped up cake and sang bday song after i went toilet with weixin they all. and they gave me a mickey mouse bracelet,love it(; thanks to.. rebecca,sijia,weixin,jasmine,rachel,caiyan,yiling,yinching,wongyi :D hope i didnt missed anyone out=x will upload the photos taken for the present and cake soon(;

ohya, i almost forget such an important thing! im going for iDARE CAMP!! :D:D:D hopefully, i will get selected with eileen and we can go camp together:D and, i think im gonna be stress over too much camps.lol. gb camp from 15-17june. 17-19june got BA COMM camp and archery camp. guess im going for archery instead of BA COMM? have to let my group leaderknow by ehs, thurs man.

♥wish me happy birthday on exact 12am and i'll be real happy

2009-05-18T03:46:00.000-07:00

is how you treating me,part of your job?

yes,i had the poa quiz today. seems that some of the qns just makes you think by yourself ehs. and i think, i did kinda badly?ohwell, perhaps, there goes my 5% grade. i don't know if i should go for iDARE camp! Oh My. i was so excited and hoping to go for the camp and just when i knew that it costs 200bucks,i became hesistant about it. where am i going to get the 200bucks from?work? perhaps, they also dunno want me go back work lohs,ha. So how how how? maybe gotta ask my sis and see how beh. and suddenly,i felt that i have so many camps to go. Gb camp on 15-17june and then also BA COMM camp on 17-19?am i gonna to go for both?i will be drop dead tired i guess. and and, i miss my gb girls, have been a long time since i last met them again.

got to do bmgt tutorial hw and get started for DSS hw~

2009-05-17T02:15:00.000-07:00

it's 3more days to my 17th birthday.
And here,it comes another one.

done LMS assignment by yesterday midnight, my tutor will be surprise that i handed the homework on MeL at like midnight 3plus?lol. she may think i was so hardworking,ha. Oh my, I'm stucked at poa homeworks. and there's poa quiz tmr! Oh my.

Now, it's all you.

2009-05-16T09:02:00.000-07:00

i just have to learn how to walk away&turn away from you,
but i can't seems to do so&I'm starting to..

woke up early in the morning for archery training. Had the theory test today and i think, i will have to take the retest la?and there's suddenly, practical test too. don't wanna to elaborate on it. lunched at ngee ann alumni again,haha. food there are nice. training ended late and reached home at 7plus. and i'm suffering from body aches la, my right muscles damn pain during training today): must be due to the PT and also the training,still not used to it yet,i guess?

♥i didn't knew if there's any difference from the way you treat them and me.

2009-05-14T22:32:00.000-07:00

no,it shouldn't be like this.
i shouldn't hope to see you, i shouldn't because it's wrong to do so.

when there's no hope, there won't be disappointment. met LMS groupmates and get started on the project. took cab to school cos my stomach was feeling very good. now, realized that i have one more hw to be done and handed in by mon, oh my. archery training again, tmr. and also, the archery test! Oh My.

♥you really, just don't know anything, at all.

celebrating ivan's bday and advance celebration for my birthday too.

2009-05-14T07:28:00.000-07:00

there's also other girls, I'm not the only one.
it has been months since i last seen you,so long till i forgotten when is it.
Your image seems to be clear in the past, but now, it's blurry.
There seems to be someone instead of you, which i hope it don't,for my good?

lunch at pizza hut with rebecca and clinque. bmgt lecture once again,and still, we still really can't concentrate. Archery training after that. did running for one big round,exhausted, has been a long time since i last ran. Shooting and bow practice afterwards. a guy named jinteck was saying my shoulder there too high,which i dunno how to make it lower,it's difficult though he can make it low. ended at 7plus going 8pm and home sweet home. have to get started for poa hw since i have to do tutorial hw and classwork==" and still, sat will be having archery test,have to study for it tmr. and yeap,took blaw test and im so sad cos i scored 16/20. i can get 18/20 derh loh, and i hate the word "generally", made me lost that 2marks.

now, i don't know why, i just don't have mood,any any mood.

♥you just appear for that moment of time and you're gone;

Photos taken during Hillgrove Alumni meeting:

2009-05-13T00:54:00.000-07:00

Ignorance&Staying away from you is what i have to learn.
It's hard for me not to look when you are just right there, at a spot.

what kind of theory is this? I slept late,i woke up on time. I slept early, i woke up late. and so,i overslept today,woke up at 7.30am. Luckily, i'm not late for class but i was really really sleepy and tired during lessons till i cant concentrate well. ended class early today,at 1pm. was still thinking that perhaps i can get myself a nap,cos i was really kinda tired. but in the end,i didnt becos i haven complete blaw tutorial hw and also, im having blaw class quiz tmr. this is the first ever quiz im gonna take and it constitute 5% to final grade,there's 10MCQs. hope i can scored well, provided that i have enough time to prepare for it? archery training tmr.

Sometimes, i realized that im not my old self anymore, i just didnt knew why i will sometimes got easily pissed off by guys, which i won't really get pissed off during secondary school days.

2009-05-12T07:21:00.000-07:00

stop being hesistant. made up your mind and kept your decision.

didnt have blaw lecture today due to graduation,dss released earlier cos of graduation too.therefore, class ended at 12pm(; bought lunch from makan place and went to eat at canteen 1 with classmates. i only thought that my classmates are just going to celebrate ivan's bday cos his bday is today and i was shocked when they sang bday song twice and saw 2cakes and i heard my name.

So,they planned to celebrate our bday together which had mine in advance cos they said next week not free. thanks to my classmates(; i was really shocked and surprised. all of us did dss after lunch and we got help from the ppl who had done it. and so, i done my dss hw by then. thanks for their help(; met rebecca they all and went ourspace. eileen came find me and we together with sijia,weilun,wilson went to the tea session for hillgrove alumni. played some games during the session and refreshments afterwards. had some photos taken too(; it's really nice to meet up with schoolmates:D

waited bus for damn long and saw hazwan on bus 945 on the way back. it has been a long time since i last met him. and he's so good la,not much homeworks and projects, only got reflective journals. hope to see all 4e2 ppl soon.

2009-05-11T06:51:00.000-07:00

i didn't knew which to choose if there are 2choices.So,does that meant that i ...?
i hope i won't,really. If not,the darkness will come again.

POA lecture today. i was sitting right at the 2nd row and guess what?i still can't absorb everything,or should i say anything?i was simply just staring.thinking of unnecessary stuffs. lunched at canteen2 with usual clinque. met dearests and went lot1 together.home at around 6plus. homeworks again ~

2009-05-10T07:32:00.000-07:00

Photos taken on archery training.

there's still loads of hw to be done ):

today is Mother's day. went for dinner at westmall instead. Mum, i love you(;